Hmmm

Often I wonder about random things, like maybe why the sky really is blue, and why it can't be hot pink. Or like why technology has to be so frustrating sometimes instead of just being nice and letting me do something I want to do. You know? Right now I'm wondering why my brothers can't be quiet. I mean, is it really physically impossible for them to just sit still on the couch and never say a word until my headache is gone? No. I so wish. I often wonder to myself why shopping takes so much from my mom. It saddens me, because it tires her easily when I feel like strutting a whole entire mall!!! I also wonder why I can't have 1,000,000 dollars of spending money. Dear Father Whom Rains Aardvarks....I wish.

Red Hot Coals that Burn Your Hands

OOOOH!! I'm so PISSED! I absolutely HATE my German teacher for assigning a stupid German Movie THIS freaking month. He couldn't have done it earlier? Of course not. Because he's stupid. He assigns it a week and a half before it's due for a movie contest, and our HUMONGOUS group has absolutely no time to do anything. I really wish we either a) had less people, b) ALL sacrificed plans to all do it on one long day, or c) been assigned this several months earlier.

But no. None of us can do that, because everyone has plans and likes those plans better than their grades. We were all going to do it today, a break from school. But Kaylynn got her phone taken away from her, so I was left unaware if we were doing it. Hours pass, and I find myself getting more and more nervous. I tried her facebook, nothing. I tried to even text her mom, but no answer. Finally she called me, but I didn't think anything was going to work anymore. Katie, the victim of our movie, is in Tooelle County right now with her Aunt and won't be back until eight tonight. Kelton, the criminal on trial in our movie, couldn't make it until four, and Kaylynn had to go to her dad's at six, and I didn't have a ride there. I guess Cole, our judge, could have come, but then there was the problem of Sara, our witness, who has absolutely no way of contacting her. So, both Kaylynn and I decided that we'll do it Wednesday. Kaylynn and I both hope that her mom can pick all of us up Wednesday and we can film and stuff and then get picked up by parents later on. Have I ever told you that I HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE making movies?? Yeah. Mindy Christen will NEVER be a name under the director's list on a big screen movie. NEVER. Not even a little one. No. I will NOT be the director when we do a music video for math. I will NEVER be a director ever in my life. Never. Ever. Ever. You can't make me.

We have it all settled, but I'm still so freaking pissed. We have costumes, props, setting, editing, burning, scripting, all that crap that we need to do too. I doubt I have a gavel somewhere in this house........Unless I use a mallet....Hmmmmmmmmmmmmm......................... I'm done typing, sorry.

Mindy

Sunday Mornings

If only the birds were chirping, the wind a light breeze, and the thought of warmth outside were a possibility on this Sunday morning.....

But it isn't. Instead, I can hear the rough, whistling wind slamming on our house with flurries of freezing cold ice....No, it's not a good day. It may hold my boyfriend back from coming over today to watch movies.....blaaarrrgggg!!!! This Sunday isn't good. Nope.

To Let Out Feelings...

I have created a new short story that I will be posting up on Passion and Roses. I feel accomplished because I haven't written a short story in forEVER. And I think this one turned out really good. I wrote it really fast and let out a lot of emotion through it....which will explain the explosions and deaths....btu you know, it's good for me, and it's a  great 3,126 word Story Story, you'll love it. It's "A Vulnerable World"

Soreness...and Other Crap

Ice Skating. Don't get me wrong, it's a lot of fun when you're with your best friend and the guy you really like. But...Nothing's ever good when you count 5+ falls on the ice. Oh but this morning I definitely felt it. My knees have huge nasty bruises and my ankles are covered in blisters. My butt is sore from falling on it also and my tongue is burned from super hot chocolate....ow.  Unfortunately for me, my spirit and my energy is drained from the long night as well. To make matters worse, I forced myself to stay up until 3:30-4:00 because I didn't want to fall asleep and dream. I don't like dreaming anymore....it's personal, but I just don't like to. I get myself tired enough to the point that I can fall asleep and it will all be black. Of course, I have a headache today, a depressed mood, hurting legs, and a growing irritation for PEOPLE. People, that is, except for Kaylynn, Possibly Brett, and ze Cousine Rachel! It's a sad matter, but it's a solid one. My brothers are especially making me mad.

Swear words aren't enough this time.

I want to say "Shit" and "Damn" and "Bastard" and "Fuck" and "Bitchy" and swear at whomever rules above us, but this time....my irritation and feelings have hit a curve so high, that I don't even want to use graphic words to let my anger out. It's this kind of anger that sort of scares me, but I can't control how I feel. You won't believe how many shoes I've thrown at the walls (Thanks Kaylynn) or how many walls I've punched today....It's a horrible day, and to make it worse, everyone is constantly asking "Mindy....what's wrong?!"

DUH!!!!

Obviously I'm not feeling good. OBVIOUSLY I'm in a bad mood. WHY pester me and make me more irritated at you when you already know. NO! PEOPLE DO NOT NEED TO KNOW WHAT IS WRONG! It is absolutely NONE of their business. Oh. But people still want to know, because people are stupid and curious. That's when you lie and say you're very very tired. Usually telling people how late I stayed up resulted in "Shame" or "Oh..." then it would shut them up, but I wish I had learned that before first period. Instead I discovered that handy effect during LUNCH. I have second lunch too, so It wasn't until closer to 1:00 when I learned it was so brilliant. I wasted a ton of my day like that. I let my mind escape though, when I played lasertag during second period. We went to Jack and Jill's bowling lane today and I got to play laser ag with friends...but I sucked because I wasn't totally into it. 8th place.

Whoop-dee-doo.

I think blogging all this out is helping a lot though, you won't believe how much writing helps me in my times of need. It's just that...it's not only having a hard skating experience the night before. No way. It's all the school work and stress that's being dumped on me. It's all this envy I'm feeling towards people. All this doubt I have for my Boyfriend. It's all this social life squishing me under it's toe. I have a German movie that hasn't even STARTED due tomorrow. Fail. This weekend half our group cannot film. Fail. I am assigned to do a "Music Video" for a Geometry class. (I know, I've already sworn at the creation of Geometry and Music Videos now) A possible fail. I have an English book test tomorrow...haven't read any book. Fail. I have a Europe Map test next week. Possible failure. I'm suppose to color both a drawn up comic book and a sign for a plane for European History tomorrow...haven't done it. Fail. PE is back to getting hard workouts again. Suck. The regular Math homework and Unit Summary due next week, (Plus Test). I know I'll fail.

And at the same time, everyone in my little German group decides I get to be the director. That I get to find a setting and get everyone together. I already wrote out the script and translated most of it. I have so much other crap I have to do too. Why does everyone expect so much of me?

Because this world is messed up. That's why.

The Week of a Busy Woman

I'd hardly call myself a woman, but I have great news! My wrist doesn't hurt nearly as bad anymore, so I'm taking the stupid wrap off and celebrating my freedom of gauze-y prisons. At the same time, today I won't be home until late, since I'm going ice-skating with my best friend and boyfriend. It's her birthday today. Yes. Kaylynn's. I'm pretty excited. I mean, I already got her a present, a book called "The Clockwork Angel" at christmas time, but I feel like I need to get her something else. Because an iTunes card was her christmas present but I have them both to her early, so she's had her present from me for a while, but I still feel obligated to do something else....hmmm.....I don't have much time, considering I have twenty minutes before school starts. Think I could make biscuits in twenty minutes?

I'm not quite sure. Oh well. Then Thursday I'm going to see if I can get my group to start filming our German movie. Yeah, we have to do this German movie for a grade....and it's due Friday. :O no time whatsoever to finish it, and we're all screwed. It's just going to have to be late. Brett and I have to do podcast stuff for Biology anyway today, so it's going to be very very busy! Then Friday is when it's due and hopefully I won't have to go anywhere Friday night.......*Silently hopes* because I just want to stay home all night. I've been out a lot lately, and it's good to stay home for a while, that's how I see it. But if I stay home too long, then I want to get out more. So I need to balance this out finely.

The weekend is a long weekend too!!! And I have that long weekend to do homework and study for my European map test in Geography....kill me. Shoot me. I don't want to do it. Nope. Oh well, I have to. And it's for a good grade. BLAJFKLJDSOIAFJAL!!! That's how annoyed I am. I need to check my grades....bla.

Have I ever stressed how much I hate Skyward? Yes, it's a stupid program designed to make our grade checking and entering easier, but I think it's crap compared to Powerschool. Oh. Probably because it was made for ELEMENTARY. Bla! People in this world are stupid. Stupid stupid stupid. I kill them all. Well, if I could. Oh well, anway, I should continue talking of work, huh? But I don't really want to anymore. I've gotten what I wanted to say out, so I'm going to do just that. I'm going to sign off, also because it's sorta time for me to get ready to go to school. :P Love my readers!

Over and Out!
<3 Mindy

Lust and Loathing....Loving and Hating....There is a difference!

A difference indeed, and that difference is that....Lust and Loathe are extremities compared to today's Love and Hate. Why do I bring this up? Because it is Valentine's day. 02-14-2011. February 14, 2011. The fourteenth day of the second month of the two thousandth and eleventh year. My fifteenth Valentine's day. My first Valentine's day with someone who wants to be mine. A Valentine's day where I feel normal: Not mushy-gushy, and not drearily hateful of the holiday.

Valentines day has nothing to report.